DH mentioned last night that DD was looking a little... robust. I didn't disagree, but I felt a bit more robust than usual myself. I sat down with DD (because he can't -- she falls to pieces when he talks to her about anything) and discussed how BOTH of us were going to start a new eating and exercise regimen effective immediately.
First order of business was hitting the scale. She has to do so when she wakes up the a.m.
I hate doing it. I don't want her to feel fat the rest of her life (I did, after my drama teacher saw me eating a candy bar once and strongly suggested I not do that anymore and once, at high school age, my step father said to me -- as I reached for a second helping of potatoes, "More for you, my plump little dove?"), but the truth is, she runs to being heavy, has "heavy" genes on both sides of the family and I don't want her to have to start her life on the heavy side.
It's not the weight, per se, or even how she looks -- it's all about health. Healthy heart, healthy blood, healthy joints. Too much weight or not-so-great food can affect all of those things.
It's my fault. She tends to love, Love, LOVE carbs of all kinds -- bread, pasta, potatoes, sweets -- and loads up on them. She eats good foot, too. Loves fruits and veggies. But it's the unhealthy stuff that's going to get to her.
So after weigh-in today, we both start keeping food diaries to become more aware. After this week of doing so, we'll move on to adjusting what we eat (though I think writing it all down will start with that ... there's something about actually making a notation that says "Three sugar cookies" that is frightening.
Exercise is tougher. I get cold very, very easily (doctor blames it on my extremely low blood pressure) so walking, hiking, etc., in the winter here is tough. But I'm going to have to figure it out, because if I go, she'll go.
I should drop at least 20 pounds, and even then I'll be 25 pounds heavier than I was when I was married, which is frightening. I need to do it for my knee, more than anything. I'd like to keep from having surgery at all costs, and carrying less weight will help.
It's a cliche to try to lose weight at the New Year. But I'm not so much looking at this as a New Year's Resolution. The timing is coincidental. I need this to be a permanent lifestyle change for the both of us.
Your Name is Gray
Your name tells people that you are calm and level headed. Your name makes you seem honest and fair.
You are able to look at things clearly and without emotion. You tend to remain neutral in most disputes.
People see you as reliable and trustworthy. You treat everyone equally, and you don't tend to have any prejudices.
You are naturally calculating and even a bit cunning. You don't like to show your cards too early in the game.
Yeah. That's very true.