NaNo Day Twenty - Ready For the End

"We are a species that needs and wants to understand who we are. Sheep lice do not seem to share this longing, which is one reason why they write so little." - Anne Lamott

This quote has little to do about what I'm blogging (to be honest, I'm winging it on the blog today, so if it's a little disconnected, you'll know why), I just loved the quote. I'm pretty fond of Anne Lamott as well, and try to rememember two things: The Sh***y First Draft and "just take it bird by bird".

Music resonates with me. The lyrics transport me. I can't write with music playing, because I'll type the words, but I do use it to inspire me.

My DH had sappy love songs playing on our XM music (on the TV) and I sat quietly reading until this came out and smacked me in the head: "You think I'm weak, I think you're wrong"

I loved that line, had no clue what the song was (do now cuz I Googled it: If You're Gone by Matchbox 20) but jotted the phrase down on my bookmark so I wouldn't forget it because it is an absolutely perfect sentiment for the heroine of my mystery and I plan on using it somewhere.

Then, later, DH had one of the country music video stations on and they had a tribute to Reba McEntire and someone sang "If I had Only Known" -- a song she recorded after a plane with her band crashed and everyone died. The lyrics made me wonder about what I would do if I knew that I only had a short amount of time left with someone... and then -- why haven't I done that thing?

If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a lifeline to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain

Why haven't you?

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Still struggling with NaNo. I'll post words when I write them... I'm a little behind today (it's already almost 6 a.m. and I haven't written a word).